ok. you can go slash your wrists now
Tears run down my eyes while I am playing “When I fall in love.” I’m a weakling! My thoughts say so. And yet there are persons who are willing to kill just to avenge me. Those who have nothing but their love to each other, and who stands as a true friends who are not after for money, but just stays as a buddy who looks at you as a source of hope and belief in God.
I thought I’ve already lost my friends. And with this thought, I can’t help but cry before my computer. I don’t have a way to earn a living. All that I do is for charity. Even my salary for the paper, I exchange it for copies of the tabloid that I may give some away. Even my life I will offer if I really found I’m loved.
But who would love me. Not a love of a kin, I know they do. My friends, at to what extent? Why can’t I feel love? I feel love from others, but there are also limitations to their love. And there is condition, and for this truth, though it’s painful to admit, no one loves me unconditionally. And my God, He has left me alone to cry. Excuse me; I can’t help it (sob).
Emos are gay they say. But better are the gays, at least they are sure that they have someone who they find they are loved. But me, though a man I am, I am left in the tiny green Island with the waves to wash away my tears. I’m still crying writing in my computer. I know I will earn more pokes from HIFI, lol (silently). I remember how I fancied after Chelsea, that I could find the right girl for me, yet she had other things in her mind, (laughing out loud), (sigh).
Nobody loves me like the way I do. For this reason, my tears continue to fall. Who would understand me? They say, I’m mad, even accused me as a gay, and many more, which I just laugh away, and for now, sob before my computer, with tearful eyes burning hot with mixed emotions. I forgive, but my mind says “TANG NA”.
Gabalde na siguro and iniluha ko. Wow disco naman and sound. At least gumaan ang pakiramdam ko sa change of music. Baliw ako, di ba? Di ba? LOL! Wala na blocked na and isip ko. Salamat sa oras at sa mga katagang nakapag-pagaan ng aking pakiramdam. At sa TANDUAY, (laughing out loud), with Nestea, haha.
-jyojyo
