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There is a moment in our life when it is needed that we refine our purpose of living knowing well that we are intently created to serve the Lord. We must not look on the mistakes of others. Likewise, we need to continue loving each other. If we could be honest, we are enlightened that it is desired that we avoid criticizing others especially those who had been part of our growth. Instead, we need to examine our day-to-day dispositions accepting our very own mistakes, and the need to correct these.

We must not be blind unable to change ourselves especially our ineffective dispositions and old tactics that do not already help us. We can divert our thoughts and be inclined to affirm others. Whatever were their misery in the past, we need not divulge their shameful experiences for they too crave to obtain the desired peace of mind and the only way for this to be achieved is to forgive whoever is their offender and forget totally what incident that ruined their life before. After all, no one is perfect and not one is a god to him, we being humans. Why not instead study again the Bible? We can even be productive with our new insights. Likewise, we need to repent ourselves and pray regularly. Even with the trials we endure, we must be awakened to the truth that we alleviate realities, and conquer temptations with God’s help. Aside from this, it is a reality that almost all of us get help from our fellow Christians.

After some analysis, we found ourselves awake and are addict to worship for God. In our salad days of growing, we must accept that we likely fall to some pits. Yet to their delight, some rejoice over other’s misery even they too does not know the answer to their questions. As they were just forced to criticize given the occurrence, which they have no choice to prevent likewise, I understand them, they being just human. It is by my conception too that I find them just in their action to protect their beliefs from those who had already differed from their faith.

I know it was I in my desire to spread the truth that have forced myself to intrude in their area of worship in my craving to take them as part of me and love humanity. They were not selfish unlike my presumption of them before. I enjoyed their company for a season and I still long to love them brotherly forgetting what pain they have caused my mind and emotion. Likewise, if I were on their side I would opt for a different strategy. I would comfort them, console them, and try to explain in the subtlest way, that it is not of my desire that we differ in our faith explanations. In this way, I can present to them clearly my side with all the enlightenment coming from the Holy Spirit without being carried by an uprising of emotion avoiding grounds, which would likely hurt both of us.

I know, they don’t intend to demoralize me, they being faithful to what they believe to be true. After all they are still my friends though the Bible teaches that we should not be equally yoked with them. I don’t care anymore if they consider their church a ‘private property’ barring my entrance to what they call a ‘danger zone’. They have all the right to the choice of their own opinions contradicting mine. I know, it is no longer time for war but for understanding each other to meet halfway not spoiled by differences in doctrines. I don’t care anymore if they blab with my personal life and neither would I think that their tongues are sinful, and our doctrine superior than theirs. After all, I was into being conceited too before and I find it hard to subdue my emotion given the prevailing circumstances in my life that contribute to my illness.

I would never think anymore that I am more swift in pace in proclaiming the gospel for they too had been anointed by God and not one can touch God’s anointed without being punished, even if they were just favored for a season. I would instead approach them again and again to resolve misunderstanding even if they think that I was dirt and a devil, after all these were their opinions that need to be respected. They all have the right to it. Maybe I was really a demon to them that forced them to inflict me to subdue my boastfulness. Maybe, I was tied to my intelligence and had been forcing an entry to explain Catholic doctrines, which they think, are doctrines of the Devil. Even with these enlightenments, I would still save our friendship. I would still try my best given the occasion to withstand their form of preaching even to my knowledge, I would find them stoning lambs.

I too have sinned and had been forgiven. It is my duty to grant the same forgiveness and not be blinded by remorse and heartaches. It was I who had been a glutton to my own opinions that have prevented me from being a special creation. My insights were darkened as I force my own outlook to theirs. I don’t find them anymore as vampires sucking power. Instead, I find them men of honest report, they being faithful to what they believe to be right. This is not the time for religious war but of helping one another disseminate the truth, and explain it in a clearer way. They have the right too to the post whereby they are designated. It is wrong to think they defend it just to get money. They are mature enough to have the right to do what they want to do even break hearts to humble a person.

Unlike before that I lose my respect to them, I thank them for molding my person even if they have drove me crazy. It is not important that I for a season have lost everything. What is important is that I had been changed by the word of God, and by the generosity of others for granting me forgiveness that I may also learn to forgive. Somehow, though until now I do not consider myself perfect being still weak and sensitive upon hearing unfavorable comments, I can still close my eyes and be tearful after hearing them, and even as I have secluded away. Yes, tearfully I would hide away and comfort my self like David, Joshua, and Jacob. Afterwards, I would be glad to find myself a new and purified Jyojyo.

- Jose Constante I. Nartatez