gagaling gagaling gagaling ohummmmmmmmmmmmmmm!
Maybe I should stop being emotional about my past, and resolve to bury it deep in the ground where it could no longer be found. By writing about it in an attempt to surface it that others may learn from my story, I may be hurting others who had similar experience with me. This would opt some to believe that I really had been ill or still unhealthy up to now.
Likewise, I must also accept that I’ve experienced those times of my ailment though I don’t feel I had been into it, to give way to acknowledging the miracle of restoration that God has done into my life. I’m not non-human to transform into the moment of resurrection without giving light to the truth that I really had experience imbalance. Moreover, I have to accept too that I am a bipolar, feeling both sadness and jubilation of my spirit in a split second.
I know this is better than trying to hide everything. In this way, the occurrence of Divine intervention into my life becomes really genuine healing my affliction gradually, till the time of the blooming of flowers in summer or even from the springtime. I won’t lose anything by being too honest about the truth. I would only appear boastful if I would try to eclipse my past.
Jesus too had craved to be understood though he was perfectly healthy. He tried his best to explain to Philip his nature that he was in the Father and that the Father is in him. To make it clear, I would say that though Jesus has the nature of the Father, he also was perfectly human. He did eat, felt thirst, slept on the boat, perspired, sensed hunger, did pray, was injured, and died on the cross.
With the spirit of the Father being apparent in him (Isaiah 11:2), he transformed the water in the jars into the sweetest wine; he cured the sick, made whole the lame, caused the mute to sing, fashioned the blind to have sight, healed the broken-hearted, raised the dead, was transfigured in the mountain, walked in the water, forgave sins, and ascended into heaven.
Similarly, we all experience resurrection from our wounded souls and the brokenness of our hearts. We too are subjected into different purposes with the nature of the Trinity apparent in our homes, to mention were the role of the father, the task of the mother, and portrayal of the children. This even extends to the characterization of our relatives and friends.
We should always look at others as the ones who are attempting to help us even with us being disconsolate. They act as pastors too and priests who are endeavoring to mitigate us by using the word, this even actualized as the two-edged-sword cutting through our souls and healing it afterwards. By the word of God growing in us, we are purified of our sins, with God manifesting apparently even in our visions that have sharpened day by day.
We should not blame God as the one who have caused our anguish. Day by day, we will see that He manifests perfectly in our midst even in times of laughter and fun. By being sentimental about the issue in our life, we pass the pain to others. Why then should we hurt them too or cause the least bit to be in pain in the same way? This would only make them feel irritable towards us.
This is far from the nature that Jesus bears in his heart. He transcended from mere human emotions. But even with his attempt, he was found crying before the tomb of Lazarus, whom he loved most, which indicate that by feeling love and been into tears, it was shown that he was perfectly human. It is the season for us not to be reduced to being lachrymose but for us to bring love and consider others as our kin by blood with which we can enjoy many happy moments.
Though we know we can be happy, we sometimes avoid occurrences that would give us jubilation by still carrying the burden of other’s sin on our shoulders. Though we may not feel sinning, we incite others around us to sin. In the turn of events, we become irritants to their eyes; though we can’t leave them for it is our belief that we can continually learn from them. We need those hurtful comments too, if we desire to grow and advance to their level.
Moreover, we should live our own existence, and not that we occupy others’ lives. If we become lost in their sight, we continually evade from similar situations that follow us all through. We’re not deranged too to cut our wrist just to get the point across. As long as there are others who still believe in us and are concerned of our welfare though we are in want of love, then the sparkle in us must go on.
Life is an existence of love and fun, and not of remorse and bitterness. As long as they can’t see progress in us or haven’t heard from us vocally as we are hesitant too being timid, we can’t avoid being criticized. But how can we approach without being considered as an intruder? And how can we cover them all for they are too many? We have to wait for the perfect time, the very moment meant for both of us.
Meanwhile, life must go on even with our priorities, for God is just on our side. Remember the story of Job? The afflictions we endure were mere nuts compared to his sorrow.
- Jose Constante I. Nartatez
